Total Loss

islandsuze · April 4th, 2011, 10:28 AM

I feel I have lost everything.

Losses:

My birth family I was adopted 1963
My Father 1977 (1 week after his mother)
My Grandmother 1977
My Grandmother 1991
My Grandfather 2002 (was like a father to me--but not in family Will because I was adopted-that really hurt and felt deceived)
My stepfather 2002
My son, Josh 2003
My mother 2005 lost her many years before due to alcohol but she passed on in 2005 while I held her hand
All my possessions 2005 due to x-boyfriend trying to burn me alive
My dog 2005 burned in fire
My daughter 2003 She was so jelous of her brother and now he has passed on she and I no longer have a relationship
My health lost 2005

My family is gone. Everything I worked so hard for is gone. All mementos and pictures of my family are gone due to fire. The man I thought I loved I put in prison for 20 years for trying to kill me. I guess my body couldnt take anymore and has started to shut down. Not really sure what to do to make life normal or even better. I was always strong and an over achiever in life love and work. True people pleaser. I guess maybe always looking to be appreciated and loved. Now I can hardly function. I really feel like my health will kill me before I turn 50.

GeminiSoldier · May 16th, 2011, 02:27 PM

I'm really sorry about all of this. >: It does seem like you have lost a lot and I'm very sorry for you.

Loosing all of that in a fire must have been horrible...
As for your loved one, if he was trying to kill you he wasn't worth it anyways. I'm sure you can find someone else and if not it just wasn't meant to be.

I'm sure your daughter forgives you. You can't keep thinking about the negatives in life although they always keep striking back at you. I'm sure your a very strong person and I think its amazing you've gone this long without hurting yourself in a way that its fatal.

All I can say is that I hope you get better. >: <3

bwendo · May 20th, 2011, 09:23 AM

one word - resilience.

There are two ways you can turn, and considering the hand you have been dealt, I would think you might have the beginnings of a motivational speaker with all your experiences - you have been through so much and still keep going.

You are an inspiration!

Heygirl13 · May 20th, 2011, 11:05 PM

You are very strong. Ive heard many people tell me that if your at the bottom theres no where else to go but up. I believe things happen for a reason. Maybe all of this happen to make you stronger, and so you can use your story to help others. Show them how you overcame adversity. When one door closes another opens. Dont give up, just keep strong.

Graham · July 31st, 2011, 11:51 PM

Well islandsuze it is matter of luck and many people are being tested by God in the world and you are in one of that so don't worry and be patience and you seems to be quite strong.

Mox00023 · December 13th, 2011, 11:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Graham

Well islandsuze it is matter of luck and many people are being tested by God in the world and you are in one of that so don't worry and be patience and you seems to be quite strong.

I really admire your strength in holding yourself together during the tough times. I highly advise you to come to India and settle in an Ashram where you can let go off all this and begin a new life.

April 4th, 2011, 10:28 AM	#1
islandsuze Junior Member Join Date: Apr 2011 Posts: 3	Total Loss I feel I have lost everything. Losses: My birth family I was adopted 1963 My Father 1977 (1 week after his mother) My Grandmother 1977 My Grandmother 1991 My Grandfather 2002 (was like a father to me--but not in family Will because I was adopted-that really hurt and felt deceived) My stepfather 2002 My son, Josh 2003 My mother 2005 lost her many years before due to alcohol but she passed on in 2005 while I held her hand All my possessions 2005 due to x-boyfriend trying to burn me alive My dog 2005 burned in fire My daughter 2003 She was so jelous of her brother and now he has passed on she and I no longer have a relationship My health lost 2005 My family is gone. Everything I worked so hard for is gone. All mementos and pictures of my family are gone due to fire. The man I thought I loved I put in prison for 20 years for trying to kill me. I guess my body couldnt take anymore and has started to shut down. Not really sure what to do to make life normal or even better. I was always strong and an over achiever in life love and work. True people pleaser. I guess maybe always looking to be appreciated and loved. Now I can hardly function. I really feel like my health will kill me before I turn 50.

May 20th, 2011, 09:23 AM	#3
bwendo Junior Member Join Date: Apr 2011 Location: Australia Posts: 25	one word - resilience. There are two ways you can turn, and considering the hand you have been dealt, I would think you might have the beginnings of a motivational speaker with all your experiences - you have been through so much and still keep going. You are an inspiration! __________________ My Blog is called Last 100 Days as an Alcoholic

May 16th, 2011, 02:27 PM	#2
GeminiSoldier Lonely New Girl Join Date: May 2011 Posts: 3	I'm really sorry about all of this. >: It does seem like you have lost a lot and I'm very sorry for you. Loosing all of that in a fire must have been horrible... As for your loved one, if he was trying to kill you he wasn't worth it anyways. I'm sure you can find someone else and if not it just wasn't meant to be. I'm sure your daughter forgives you. You can't keep thinking about the negatives in life although they always keep striking back at you. I'm sure your a very strong person and I think its amazing you've gone this long without hurting yourself in a way that its fatal. All I can say is that I hope you get better. >: <3

May 20th, 2011, 11:05 PM	#4
Heygirl13 Junior Member Join Date: May 2011 Location: Las Vegas Posts: 7	You are very strong. Ive heard many people tell me that if your at the bottom theres no where else to go but up. I believe things happen for a reason. Maybe all of this happen to make you stronger, and so you can use your story to help others. Show them how you overcame adversity. When one door closes another opens. Dont give up, just keep strong.

July 31st, 2011, 11:51 PM	#5
Graham Junior Member Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: USA Posts: 15	Well islandsuze it is matter of luck and many people are being tested by God in the world and you are in one of that so don't worry and be patience and you seems to be quite strong.