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quirkycat · September 13th, 2008, 11:10 PM

I am an introvert so the idea of an online support group is very appealing to me as I feel more comfortbale in this environment to open up. This place seems quite warm from what I can tell from the postings. A lot of hard choices have faced me this last year, and I feel it wearing on me.

It has been over the course of about 9 years that I have developed severe depression, though I did not actively seek help for it until 4 years ago. I didn't really believe in it before then, and then I didn't want to accept it, I didn't want to hurt those around me, but in the end it came out anyway- all over the place. I've tried several different meds with differing results- and have seen a few different professionals but the area I live in doesn't have a lot to offer in that way. I gleaned hope for the first time after attending an out of town clinic for a few weeks last year. I didn't think I would ever find that glimpse of light again and it has carried me far, but life is a continual upward climb, so I think I need this. So hello to everyone here.

kraftykid · September 14th, 2008, 05:40 PM

Hi quirkycat. There are thousands of people out there who don't know they have depression. So those of us who know what we suffer from are at least lucky enough to have gotton some help.

My therapist is a firm believer that we all have something we like to do, gardening, walking, pets, reading, sewing etc. Those are the things we should concentrate on when the depression hits. Me, I find my only true solace in sleeping. It is not something I consciously seek, it just happens.

Sometimes I have to be forced to do some things, but the final accomplishment always makes me feel better. It doesn't sound like much but I went outside to trim my horses feet. Only got two done but I felt so proud. Next time my back does not hurt I will do the other two feet. Good thing I am not a farrier, I wouldn't make much money (G)

Welcome to Transformations!!

quirkycat · September 15th, 2008, 10:17 AM

Thank you for the welcome. It does seem to be true to find healthy, enjoyable zoning activities helps carry one through harder moments. I am still trying to get to know myself even if a bit late. Having depression has made that harder because I rememeber how I felt before and I am not that same person. It isn't a change I would've asked for but it is here and reconciling the changes with who I am now and who I was then is an interesting journey to say the least.

kraftykid · September 15th, 2008, 04:30 PM

quirky, none of us ask for our "interesting journey" we just hang on and hope for the best.

Good luck

September 13th, 2008, 11:10 PM	#1
quirkycat Junior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: east coast, U.S. Posts: 2	New Here I am an introvert so the idea of an online support group is very appealing to me as I feel more comfortbale in this environment to open up. This place seems quite warm from what I can tell from the postings. A lot of hard choices have faced me this last year, and I feel it wearing on me. It has been over the course of about 9 years that I have developed severe depression, though I did not actively seek help for it until 4 years ago. I didn't really believe in it before then, and then I didn't want to accept it, I didn't want to hurt those around me, but in the end it came out anyway- all over the place. I've tried several different meds with differing results- and have seen a few different professionals but the area I live in doesn't have a lot to offer in that way. I gleaned hope for the first time after attending an out of town clinic for a few weeks last year. I didn't think I would ever find that glimpse of light again and it has carried me far, but life is a continual upward climb, so I think I need this. So hello to everyone here.

September 14th, 2008, 05:40 PM	#2
kraftykid Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 83	Hi quirkycat. There are thousands of people out there who don't know they have depression. So those of us who know what we suffer from are at least lucky enough to have gotton some help. My therapist is a firm believer that we all have something we like to do, gardening, walking, pets, reading, sewing etc. Those are the things we should concentrate on when the depression hits. Me, I find my only true solace in sleeping. It is not something I consciously seek, it just happens. Sometimes I have to be forced to do some things, but the final accomplishment always makes me feel better. It doesn't sound like much but I went outside to trim my horses feet. Only got two done but I felt so proud. Next time my back does not hurt I will do the other two feet. Good thing I am not a farrier, I wouldn't make much money (G) Welcome to Transformations!!

September 15th, 2008, 10:17 AM	#3
quirkycat Junior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: east coast, U.S. Posts: 2	Thank you for the welcome. It does seem to be true to find healthy, enjoyable zoning activities helps carry one through harder moments. I am still trying to get to know myself even if a bit late. Having depression has made that harder because I rememeber how I felt before and I am not that same person. It isn't a change I would've asked for but it is here and reconciling the changes with who I am now and who I was then is an interesting journey to say the least.

September 15th, 2008, 04:30 PM	#4
kraftykid Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 83	quirky, none of us ask for our "interesting journey" we just hang on and hope for the best. Good luck