New Member from Kentucky :)

ThinkinKillsThSoul · July 23rd, 2012, 12:36 AM

Hello all, my name is Tishana. I currently live in Kentucky with my boyfriend, 2 roommates, and two dogs. I am manic depressive as well as having fybromyalgia. I ran out of my insurance and have been without xanax for almost three months. I am severely depressed, and am seeking help through these sites as well as hotlines because it has gotten to the point I can no longer handle it. I am contemplatling suicide more than twice a week. Although I know it is a selfish act in itself, sometimes I feel like it is the only way to rid my brain of these horrifying thoughts and emotions. I love my Mother and little Brother with every inch of my heart and they and my best friend Brandon are the only reasons I have not followed through with the suicide. I want to live my life happy and free but for now I am mentally confined by sickness, that I cannot rid my brain of. What I am trying to accomplish here is to find friends who understand every thing I am going through without passing judgement. Although my bestfriend would probably understand, I don't want to add stress to him by explaining these sucidal thoughts and tendencies to him. My boyfriend is too busy being an alcoholic to care about my mental health, he believes that you are what you create, which is true to a certain extent, but these thought won't leave me alone. I don't know how else to deal with them other than to attempt to reach out to people going through the same situations. If you can help please contact me here or at trfowler9 at gmail I am more than willing to chat, listen, and be as much help to you as possible, all I ask for is an open heart, ears, and no judgements be made. Thanks, look forward to chatting soon, Tish!

July 23rd, 2012, 12:36 AM	#1
ThinkinKillsThSoul Junior Member Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Kentucky Posts: 1	New Member from Kentucky :) Hello all, my name is Tishana. I currently live in Kentucky with my boyfriend, 2 roommates, and two dogs. I am manic depressive as well as having fybromyalgia. I ran out of my insurance and have been without xanax for almost three months. I am severely depressed, and am seeking help through these sites as well as hotlines because it has gotten to the point I can no longer handle it. I am contemplatling suicide more than twice a week. Although I know it is a selfish act in itself, sometimes I feel like it is the only way to rid my brain of these horrifying thoughts and emotions. I love my Mother and little Brother with every inch of my heart and they and my best friend Brandon are the only reasons I have not followed through with the suicide. I want to live my life happy and free but for now I am mentally confined by sickness, that I cannot rid my brain of. What I am trying to accomplish here is to find friends who understand every thing I am going through without passing judgement. Although my bestfriend would probably understand, I don't want to add stress to him by explaining these sucidal thoughts and tendencies to him. My boyfriend is too busy being an alcoholic to care about my mental health, he believes that you are what you create, which is true to a certain extent, but these thought won't leave me alone. I don't know how else to deal with them other than to attempt to reach out to people going through the same situations. If you can help please contact me here or at trfowler9 at gmail I am more than willing to chat, listen, and be as much help to you as possible, all I ask for is an open heart, ears, and no judgements be made. Thanks, look forward to chatting soon, Tish!