relapse urges

qtktqueenbee · August 1st, 2010, 10:42 AM

I first got clean/sober when I was 18 but I have had several relapses since then. I am currently 22 and I will have one year clean/sober at the end of this month. A year ago I had over one year clean/sober but I relapsed and it was very painful since I had been so proud of myself for making it over a year. Now I am struggling because my disease keeps telling me that I should go ahead and drink/drug now so that it is less painful than having a year and then relapsing. I know it doesn't really make any sense. I guess I just don't trust myself. Can anybody relate?

August 1st, 2010, 10:42 AM	#1
qtktqueenbee Junior Member Join Date: Jul 2010 Posts: 1	relapse urges I first got clean/sober when I was 18 but I have had several relapses since then. I am currently 22 and I will have one year clean/sober at the end of this month. A year ago I had over one year clean/sober but I relapsed and it was very painful since I had been so proud of myself for making it over a year. Now I am struggling because my disease keeps telling me that I should go ahead and drink/drug now so that it is less painful than having a year and then relapsing. I know it doesn't really make any sense. I guess I just don't trust myself. Can anybody relate?