hey.
first of all, you're underaged and you drink. that's bad. i'm 18 and i never took a sip of alcohol, cause i've seen what drinking does to people. i don't want any of it. do you want to share why you are suicidal? if it's too personal or too hard for you to tell, it's okay.
your mom loves you. don't think about suicide and cutting. keep yourself occupied with activities. be a reason for someone else's smile if you haven't found your reason to smile.